Madness

Today I feel fear, the fear that chills me right through my heart.

I spoke to Arlene to update her of the status of her documentation for her departure. Meanwhile, I reprimanded her for her constant drama and the extreme stress that she is causing to my current maid, Lani. I was quite fierce.

She stood there and stared at me. In her eyes, there is no remorse. Just a piecing look that sent me shivering. I cut short my talk with her and told her to go back to her room. She refused to move. She stood there. Even when Lani told her to go inside the room, she just stood there. Lani had to push her to her room. She told us, "send me back NOW or I will NOT be able to control my emotions". She gave me one of her dramas again. But this time, it was madness. It was hysteria. It was a sign to show me she is capable of doing anything. Anything! She has no tears.

Even as I am typing now, my hands are still cold. I am too scared over what she would do to my family. Lani broke down and cried. She looked at Lani coldly. That chilling look. She is going mad. No, she is not crazy. She is too calm to be insane. Something just goes terribly wrong that makes me cold, makes me want to faint. I squat down to compose myself. The house feels unusually chilling. She gave me her threats. Hubby, FOR ONCE, shouted. Really shouted. He does not want her to harm us.

I was prepared to call the police. Hubby was prepared to defend us. It was madness. Total madness!

I am still in fear over what she will do. She locks herself in her room in total darkness. She doesn't want to eat. She doesn't want to bathe. Every minute, every second now is a danger. Oh God, please keep me sane. I cannot take this anymore. I cannot take this threat anymore. I cannot live in fear anymore.