Does my son deserves any less?

Justin is having his graduation ceremony tomorrow. It is a graduation cum concert held for all K2 students from kinderland.

Joel was pulled out of Kinderland since Sep this year. I do not like the management of the school and how profiteering they are. That is the reason why I pulled Joel out since Joel was still in nursery. Justin, on the other hand, is already in K2 and graduating this year. Therefore, I want him to complete his school term and graduate from Kinderland.

I know that when we pulled Joel out, the management and the teachers were looking at us differently. They thought we had no money to pay, and used "dissatisfaction with management" as an excuse. One teacher even commented that we could find a PAP to put Joel in.

What's more, we are not driving a Lexus or BMW. We just own a "pathetic" euro van which we used to fetch the kids to and fro school, and for our personal use. We are not the flashy kind and find no need to splurge on a car when we could use our company to register and buy a van that runs on the cheaper diesel. Wouldn't it be better that money is kept in the bank than spent on a car that reaps no return? Car and van serve the same purpose on bringing us from point A to point B. So why bother to pay so much more for the maintenance of a car?

I know, the teachers do not look quite well upon us. Afterall, Justin's classmates APPEARS to be richer than us. Fine, it doesn't bother me.

But I am beginning to feel the pinch now, as a mother. For this concert, Justin got one of the most insignificant role with a pathetic costume that resembles a gigglo. When I look at other students, they were all so bright and cheery with their elaborate costumes. Justin just got a singlet and a super tight shorts. Why? WHY?

Justin is introverted, I know. But does he deserves any less? Does he deserve to be despise? Why should he be deprived of a chance to perform, to shine, just like other kids? I pay the same school fees as any other children, and paid on time too. I have never once give any problems to the teachers, always co-operating with them. So, why should my son be different from the rest?

Justin and Joel are very different in their personality. Joel shines in any situation. With his charm, he can get away easily with anything and wins the heart of almost anyone. Justin is on the losing end. He is quieter and more shy. Nonetheless, he is still as charming with his sweet demeanor. He does what he is being told and is co-operative in any sense.

I am their mother and I try to love them as much as I can. Joel is never short of love and attention and everyone seems to be more tolerant of Joel, including my parents. Justin is the one who never seems to win favour from others, besides Jin.

Maybe I have made the mistake of putting Justin in a branded school... Showing off is never in my blood.